But when something gives way, stuff piles up very quickly. I need to stay organized to stay on top of things, and right now that’s proving difficult.
At the moment there’s more riding on me than usual and I also happen to be in one of the most intensely scheduled rotations in my program. As much as I love the work, I’ve got a lot going on and I’m feeling the stress, which I usually don’t.
My husband is having a rough time with his recovery. Things aren’t great on that front.
My RA is completely uncontrolled right now which is why I’m awake and complaining at almost 3:30 in the morning.
Miss M is going through what’s probably the most challenging phase of toddlerhood and while it’s expected and developmentally normal, it requires a lot of emotional resources to help her grow through this phase.
Plus I’m a resident and I’m not feeling as prepared as I would for my shifts, and I have to do my QI project.
I’m also still dealing with this monitoring contract nonsense so that’s just one more thing on the pile.
So things are just rough right now. I’m coping, because I have to and it’s my job to keep my stuff together so that I can support everyone else, but I’m feeling the strain more than I usually would.
Thing is we all have these moments in our lives where everything just drops on us all at once and unexpected stuff occurs and life goes on despite the added demands. My ability to cope when this kind of stress hits has been what has gotten me through this whole wild ride to this point, and it is what will carry me through to when things get a little easier again.
I’ve got several things going for me which help.
- I have some really amazing friends who are supportive and also able to remind me to take care of myself.
- my incredibly sweet co-residents sent us a very thoughtful gift that gave me something less to worry about.
- my oldest has really come into his own and is growing up into a reliable and responsible young man.
- I’ve gotten back into swimming which helps with pain management.
- discovered recently that Costco sells Diclofenac gel in large tubes so I have a constant supply nowadays
And lots of snuggles from kids and pets and words of encouragement from wonderful people all make it easier.
Things are a bit rough right now, but they’ll get better. They always do.